January 2013 was an unforgettable month in my life. Starting that month, my life has changed. While my life lost something, I myself lost someone who was very important to me.
Sometimes I think that he’d only missed his mom (grandma) and dad (grandpa), so that he wanted to visit them, and then eventually he’d decided to stay with them.
Well, it’s time for him to rest. He can certainly trust me to take care of mom and his two daughters. I’m sure of that because he taught me very well on everything throughout my life and his. Every simple or complicated things that will be very useful for the rest of my life.
I knew he wasn’t perfect. He made mistakes. Sometimes I got mad at him or even resent him. Now, remembering those times made me sad and regretful. But I’m sure he forgave me for that.
Maybe I’ve never heard it directly from him, but I’m sure that he was very proud of me. I’ve heard the words coming from his friends and colleagues. I’m very glad for that.
I’m also glad that I could spend his last minutes sitting next to him. I’m sure that he had heard all the things I’ve whispered to his ear before his last breath.
I miss those times we’ve had when we watched football together. I miss those times when we’ve had dinner together with mom and your two daughters. I miss those times we’ve spent talking in the car ride to somewhere… But certainly, I miss him.
Every night I send him prayers. I pray for his eternal rest to be peaceful, and for his family to be strong. I’m sure Allah SWT will hear those prayers.
Take care of yourself up there, Dad.. Please send my best regards to Grandma and Grandpa.
We’ll meet again, eventually.. :’)
Sincerely,
Your son, Pramuaji.
